I’m not very good at keeping track anymore. I used to be so on top of blogging about my TSW journey!
So things have a taken a turn for the worse. Remember the last post? Well, I ain’t feeling so hot anymore. I woke up feeling like absolute sh*t on November 14th. Haven’t felt this way since… month 2? You would probably think one would be out of the thick of things at month 14 but this really proves that this entire process is one hella unpredictable ride.
Allow me to describe how my beautiful face currently looks like —
Familiar with raccoons? The black ‘band’ around their eyes that resemble bandits? That’s how I look like. Replace that black part with bloodshot redness. My eyelids were originally puffy and swollen, the area around my eyes and cheeks were blistery and basically looked like I had a major allergic reaction. Those characteristics have largely subsided since November 14th but I still pretty much look like sh*t. I know it is all subjective but to be totally honest, I’m pretty disappointed.
Went to see Dr. Z for an ‘emergency’ appointment on Friday and literally lost my cool. I was too pissed to be scared of her. I know TSW is unpredictable but I’ve been following her ‘rules’ since month 1.5 (minus me falling off the wagon in during month 13). Why am I flaring like this again? Given the fact that I was at my worst in October/November 2012, I have all the reason to be paranoid. What if history repeats itself? I want answers.
I should clarify with my readers that the symptoms are nowhere near as bad as the initial flare in October 2012. This ‘November 2013 flare’ seems to have localized around my eyes and cheeks. No blisters, rash, oozing, itching, bloodshot red skin patches or flaking on any other part of my body.
Back to my face. No itching or flaking. The blisters oozed on Saturday and scabs have taken over the dried up parts of my under eyelid and cheeks. Dr. Z tells me the top part of my body is heat-y (hot) and that is why my face is so red. The lower extremities are constantly cold. It is apparently difficult to treat with herbs since the medicine can’t be overly hot or cold and it will ultimately cause imbalance. She asked me what I wanted to get rid of first. Ummmm, no brainer. My RED FACE maybe?
My wish is her command. She gave me a prescription for a ‘cool’ concoction and strictly advised me to drink it for no more than 3 days. Things seem to be working. Sunday night and the color tone of my face changed from bloodshot red to pinkish/purple.
I haven’t lost faith in her but I’ve spent nearly 5K on acupuncture treatment and TCM medicine since October 2012. Don’t get me wrong. I have absolutely no problem with spending money to expedite/make this process less painful let alone have it strengthen my overall health and well-being. BUT I’m spending $$$. So please, reassure me that everything is going to be OK.
Let’s see how these next few days stack up.
100 shades of pink for the time being.